I was asked to write an article for the next issue of SOHI magazine, so I duly did the interview and sat down to write the piece last week, only to find myself frozen with fear.
It wasn't because I didn't know what to do. Heck, I've written a thousand articles, and I could hear this one in my head. It was just waiting to come out.
I was frozen because I was worried that it wouldn't be good enough for SOHI - that it would be cheesy or corny, or just kind of daggy. I think SOHI is very cool, and as I've never felt particularly 'cool' in my life, the old teenage fears of being a bit of a loser reared their ugly heads.
Anyway, a kind and expressive facebook friend, Nancy, told me what I could do with my fears a few days later, and wrote these thoughtful words, which I thought were well worth sharing with anyone else who gets afraid like me.
"I suppose we all have that shape-shifting fear that raises its head and causes us to worry that what we do will not be good enough, that our gift is too small. Whenever we press through that, abandon ourselves to the possibility of inadequacy, we exert a kind of courage and gain another increment of strength that reminds us that apart from Him we can indeed do nothing but with Him we, our hearts, minds and souls, find a greater measure of substance in our innermost selves."